i'm running out of time..

i know i don't have a lot of time left..
i've included two countdown timers on my side column
to remind myself about two separate occasions,
one concerns my sight while
the other concerns my ,
how much time i have left..

its very depressing... how humans often take what they have for granted
well..
i believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye to it..
time, love are amongst the things that are important
yet are often taken for granted
i don't know why humans are like that..
i'm one of them..

anyhow,
recently i've been discovering cuts
on my thighs,
their pretty straight lines
as though they were knife made
i wonder how..
no, their not self inflicted -_-

what you don't know
you can feel it somehow